It was like, 15 lbs, the figue. It was like christmas tree cookie dough wrapped around a fruitcake kind of thing? It doesn't sound that delicious but it was and it made me full for like, nearly 9 hours. It was ridiculous. I have accomplished so much today but it just like was a terrible day. We didn't get any of our assignments until 2 oclock this afternoon so I had to read everything for the whole week today and I just feel so lazy that I have been laying in my bed reading for like 5 hours now. I really wanted to go get some ice cream after I picked up my assignments but everywhere that sells ice cream in paris is closed on sunday, like all of the stores even are closed. So, i couldn't get any which is probably better anyway but I am like, starving now. I realized today I haven't eaten any red meat the whole time I have been here I don't think. Definitley not beef at least. I really want like a hamburger. The fact that it seems to be getting warm in michigan has me thinking a lot about barbeques and summer time, and the fourth of July. I can't wait to go up to my parents cabin, and to kayak around with John. I am going to become such a good kayaker this summer, my core is going to be so strong. It is really hard to miss spring because it is always so surprisingly great in MIchigan. Although, its not like its not going to be spring here, it just seems like spring is more gradual and freezing here so far. JOhn was reminding me about how fall isbetter and how much I will love being in Michigan in the fall, but really its probably not going to be. I am not going to be like tailgating and going to class in the fall. I am goign to be WORKING. I was so anxious last year for what it would feel like if I got to this time and hadn't lined anything up and now its real and I just couldn't care less. Like I think I realized when I was working for the past few months like it's not like I am actually not going to have enough money to be alive, I just might like barely have enough money to be alive. I really wonder where I am going to live next year. It is just so weird not to know and not to be able to plan it out until I can find a job. 

    I planned a lot for how much I was going to miss John, and how much I would miss like my family, but I had not really planned for how much I would miss my friends. While the girls in this program are very sweet, we don't have a ton in common and I wonder about if erika is in chicago next year if we will like ever hang out again. I just failed to make appropriate provisions to talk with my friends while I was here. I think so far that is the really big lesson becuase it has always been like so important to have a boyfriend. Well right now I have a great boyfriend so I don't feel the need to be trying to fill a void on that front, but I am still left with a lot of time on my own and it is kind of uncomfortable. I don't know what to do with myself. So I stopped biting my nails, but they are growing really slowly and even when I paint them they look like a child painted them because I have bitten them for so long I don't think I ever learned how to do it well.

      This week is going to be super busy I feel because we have our class meetings spread out, amine is coming to town, I have a french test, and I have a meeting for the like student counsel kind of group at school. I don't know when I am going to fit my knitting group in, I might not be able to go this week :(. and it was CANCELLED last week.

     Tatiana and I went to the ghetto of paris to go to this flea market at porte de clingnancourt. It was actually like really cool. I got harassed less than I do in an average day just around town and they had like all of this music playing from booths and everything ti was just really fun. I think we are going to try to go back there and go out to eat, and I might try to take John there too when he comes. I also went to like, a whole bunch of vintage shops. They all really made me want a fur coat/leather coat. Everybody just looks so chic wearing them... I tried to convince myself that it wont be cold for very  much longer and I think I would never wear it in the united states. They are just so cheap! and cute!